Canon is almost walking independently. He has great balance. Give him something to push and he almost runs. He cruises all around our house holding onto walls and couches, doors, cupboards etc.
But stand him up by himself and suggest to him that he start stepping out on his own and he’ll protest, sitting down promptly. Or he’ll wait and put his hands above his head waiting to grab our hands before he starts moving forward. He doesn’t trust himself yet. Crawling seems quicker. Holding onto things feels safer even though it means going the long way around when he’s trying to get to the piano or the kitchen or me.
I keep seeing the parallels in our adult lives. Unsure of ourselves, not ready to let go, preferring to do what we’re already comfortable doing instead of continuing to grow. Protesting the push to try something new.
No matter how much we cheer Canon on, he won’t walk until he believes he can do it. It doesn’t seem to matter that we believe he can do it – he has to figure it out for himself. It just makes me wonder, how many times in life have I waited and waited to try something because I didn’t trust myself yet? How many times have I pulled back from a challenge even when those around me had full confidence I could do it, the encouragement sounding like gibberish or crazy talk in my ears?
And then I think about patience and letting him go at his own pace. I’m always there to offer him a hand if he wants to walk around, we don’t prod him too much. And if God is like a parent, think of his infinite patience with us. His desire for us to grow but his ability to wait for us as we learn at a snail’s pace, always there to offer us a hand as we test out our steps of faith.
Seriously, it cracks me up when I tell Canon, “You can do it – walk to me!” and he frowns and looks at me like I’ve made a ridiculous suggestion. He doesn’t know what I know – that walking will soon be his norm. He doesn’t see what I can see – that this phase of limited mobility is fleeting and he’ll soon be free to run.
God knows and sees so much more about each of us than I know and see for Canon.
He knows where we are headed: “And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ” (Philippians 1:6) and He sees our future without limitations: “ To him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy— to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! Amen” (Jude 1:24-15).
We’re all almost walking in this life. And it makes me so excited to learn how to run someday.